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I was so excited that I had gotten Evan's phone number that I couldn't wait to call him. I knew that if
I called him the very next night I could possibly be coming off desperate. I didn't care though. As nervous as I was to call
him I couldnt just sit there and not call him so maybe I was more desperate then I thought. I called him and all the nervousness
just left my body. I felt so comfortable talking to him on the phone. We went out to dinner that weekend and it was a little
awkward trying to find things to talk about. It was weird how I could talk to him on the phone fine but when it came to talking
to him in person it was such a challenge. He said to me "Did I ask you to take a picture for me" I smiled and said "yes" and
that was probably the first breath easy moment of the evening. He was 22, and was going to school in the city for advertising.
He felt that me being 19 was too young for him but he said I was mature for my age. On our way home from dinner it began to
get a little quiet again so I told him what the deal was. I told him I thought he was hot and that usually most hot guys are
conceded jerks and he just wasnt. He didnt know what to say except "Thank you for thinking I'm hot. I'm gonna keep you around
for a while" Once again satisfied with my final actions for the evening We kissed and said our goodbyes. The whole month of
May we would meet up at clubs like Thunders, Lux, and Sutra and just hang out and kiss. I told him I didn't hook up with people
I just met and that I only had sex with people I was dating. He understood that and he respected me for it. Things were starting
to look bad because this thing between us didnt look like it was going anywhere. It wasnt moving forward at all. I decided
maybe it was time he met Yahyra. I figured if anyone could evaluate the situation she could. Yahyra and I had both registered
for a summer course at the local community college so we were classmates once more like in High School. The day that we registered
for class I got a call from Kyle and he left a message saying "don't call me, we're not friends, I trusted you and you betrayed
that trust, and I have no intrest in having someone like that in my life" Apparently Minh confronted him about the whole male
seeking male thing at match.com and he was mad that I had said something. I was a little hurt but got over it quickly since
this was buisness as usual between the two of us. I had other friends who knew me far better then him and was finally realizing
who my friends really were. Yahyra and I decided to double date with Evan and I. We went to see Shrek 2 and Yahyra seemed
to like him a lot. I thought maybe I should give this a try one more time but that lasted about a week. I realized that as
long as I felt uncomfortable talking to him that this was not going to go anywhere. Maybe it had to do with the way we met.
I was kind of forced to talk to him rather then talking to him on my terms. I realized that I was following him around like
a puppy and that made me angry at myself that I would let someone treat me like that. It's like I put him up on this pedistle
and I didn't think I was worthy of him. It became obvious my self-esteem was withering and things needed to change now. I
decided it was time to meet someone else and move on from Evan because it looked as though it was just not meant to be.
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