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When Matt came back from Boston we were pretty much inseperatable. We mostly saw each other at night after
work. On the weekends we went to the movies or to Thunder's. During the week I would go to his house at night and he would
come over my house on the weekend's ocasionally. Things would get a little hot and heavy but we both wanted to wait on having
sex just to make sure this thing we had wasn't based on sex and lust. It was hard but we stayed strong even though there were
times when one of us just wanted to give in the other stayed in control. Meanwhile at home my grandmother had gone upstate
to visit her sister for the day. My mother decided to take advantage of her absence and recruited me to help her search my
grandmother's room for god knows what. So I helped for like five minutes and gave up because my mom wouldn't tell me what
I was looking for. All I knew was that if I came across something that looked important I should give it to her. Truthfully
I don't even think my mom knew what she was looking for. That night I went to see Matt at Tara's cause he was living with
her now. He wanted to surprise me with something so he had me close my eyes and cover them while he drove me somewhere. He
ended up taking me by the water to a spot he would go to just to think and clear his mind. It was beautiful. We just sat there
talking and watching the stars and the ferries out in the water. Then we started making out but were interupted by my phone
ringing. It was my grandmother asking if I had been in her room because somethings were out of place. I played stupid and
told her I had no clue what she was talking about and that maybe she should ask my mom if she knew anything. Matt and I got
back to buisness but stopped again when we thought we heard voices. We both concluded it must have been from the houses surrounding
the water. Unfortunatly we had to leave the premises when a park ranger drove by and informed us the park was closed. When
we got back to Tara's house Tara and Bryan were outside acting weird and laughing hysterically about something. We hung out
a bit and then we all said our goodbye's to Bryan because he was leaving for college in the morning. I said goodbye to Matt
too because he was going along for the roadtrip for the weekend. When Matt came back that Sunday we went to a seafood festival
that Tara was working at. That Friday at Thunder's Matt was really drunk and he told me he loved me. He didn't want to tell
me that way and it wasn't exactly how I imagined him telling me he loved me but he couldn't control it. He said the truth
always comes out when he's drunk so he's telling the truth. He then preceded to tell me why he loved me and I wasn't about
to stop him so I milked that for all it was worth. I didn't say that I loved him back because I didn't want to steal his thunder
and make it look like I was saying it just because he said it. We decided that we were ready to take our relationship to the
next level and have sex. The next day Matt came with me to a carnival that goes on every labor day weekend. My grandmother
came along too which was a little weird but at that same time it was good cause it meant she was accepting the fact that we
were together. We went on a few rides and ate dinner. We were only there for about two hours. That night we got a room so
we could finally be together physically. Right before we did anything I paused for a minute and whispered in his ear "I Love
You". It was special for me not just because it was the first time I told him I loved him but because it was the first time
I had told anybody outside my family and friends that I loved them and meant it. To be honest I knew that this was about more
then sex because I was just happy knowing that I was able to spend the night with him. I was finally genuinley happy in a
relationship and it's weird because it just came out of nowhere. It's like when I was looking for a relationship it was the
hardest thing to find with the right person but when I just didn't care and wanted to have fun it came to me. I'm glad we
got together the way we did because it feels right. Unfortunatly my happiness would be short lived because secret's in my
family and relationship were about to come out and send me on an emotional rollarcoaster that would turn my world upside down.
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